Dear Father God,

Please forgive me of my sins, even before I utter another word. I do not wish to come to you unclean, so please see me covered in the blood of Jesus. Washed in that blood. Secure in His blood, for He satisfied you in all things. The first born. The standard of holiness and righteousness. Oh Father, forgive me of my selfish pursuits. I still seek to figure things out outside of having conversation with you. And then I realized I am just thinking in a loop, and I need new spiritually and emotionally strong language to push through the loops that seek to hold me in place. I cannot be hateful. I cannot be vengeful, even though sometimes, Father... please help me to forgive myself for my betrayals and shortcomings that I hold against myself. Life is indeed such a short journey in the grand scheme of time. And I have spent enough time figuring it out. Thank you for your grace and mercy. May we continue this conversation.